Laying awake, late at night

Thinking of nothing, except for him

Only to wonder if he too thinks of me

I’ve forsaken him

So how could he?

And why would he?

Think of someone like me?

But the love, that we once shared

Took a toll upon my heart

To never forget him

Yet, I continue to suffer

Without trying to say a word

This heartache of mine

Is yet too strong to tell the other

For what he shared with me

Has never been forgotten

I continue to hold

Only to hope for the right time to come

For it will be then, that the other

Will he feel forsaken?

Without one or the other

What is it that I should do?

Should I turn and leave both to be?

Or should I choose one over the other?

It kills me, to know, I have a love for the other

And not with the current one

With the current one, I have a place to be

And a hope for change in him that I need

Before the love can be

Unlike, him who I still love and think about

I cannot be with because he has not forgiven me

Yet, I am told, to follow your heart

But as you can see, I have and its

Not gotten very far

So, again and again, I continue to ask

Where is it I should be?

Please tell me

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